contemplate.. emo...

the last week was way too gloomy for me not only because of the H1NI scare here in the office but also because of the changes that transpired. another thing that bothered me was the low points that i got for my attendance on the first two quarters. i had a perfect attendance actually but my requests for shift adjustments were all demerited for. i used to think that i owe the company so much since they were so supportive when i was trying to slave myself through school. turned out that i was wrong. no need for utang na loob! also, i was affected by the recent turn of events in my friends' lives. no need to blab bout them since those aren't my stories...all i can say is that i feel sorry for everything that they had to go through...


all these events or changes really took a toll on me. i was even thinking that they were the real reasons why my flu resurfaced. hmmm, guess what actually happened was not a relapse but an episode of psychosomatic disorder! haha.. whatever it is though, i'm glad that they're starting to go to the remote parts of my brain! heheh.. really hope to forget about all the things that happened here in the office and every ache that my friends went through.


i guess i'm still a weakling. i haven't totally erased the the part of me that sees a flawed spot even on the happiest circumstance. i guess i really have to try more to create a better, stronger and more optimistic me..


these days, i've had the strong feeling of dropping everything off and living a carefree and worry-free life...i don't want this job anymore...seems like i'm not growing as an individual and my career's not advancing as well. the only thing that's been pushing me is the 13th month pay in december, hehe...


the last week was really a sullen one. i just wanted to confine myself at home and sulk in one corner but i realized then that that's no good for me...this just a phase, i hope, since i can't afford to quit work anytime soon. there are bills to pay and responsibilities to fulfill...i just hope that our superiors could find it in their hearts to give us leeway and to realize that we are not machines, therefore, we need rests and vacations. i also hope that they'd stop giving us jobs that aren't part of our job description. and lastly, i hope that in every job well done, we are given a pat on the back.


reality really bites. .. i know i've been through this same meandering road before. i hope i could find the way back and be happy once again...


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buti na lang, i get to listen to some songs these days that really make my day. i love listening to Boys Over Flowers OST.. and also, i got an inspiration.. haha! can't get enough of Lee Min Ho! ;p

week-ender

i'm supposed to be monitoring for the set of calibrations that we're conducting starting next tuesday, but i decided to put it off til monday because of this obstinate cough and splitting headache that i'm still nursing... i fervently believe that i'm all well now but it seems like i'm not. i still suffer from occasional headache and slight fever which resurfaced last night...i can't help but think about what other people suspect--- that i might have the H1-whatevs in my system. if given the case, then so be it. in the first place, i won't be surprised since we are all open to the idea that the office's plagued with the said virus. some of the teachers were reported to be positive so everyone here's at risk...i just have to take care of my health then... however, it saddens me to think that all our loved ones are also at risk. another sad thing is that the management seem not to care.. they still encourage teachers to come to work even if they're sick, otherwise, they merit a memo. just how unkind is that! i'm really tired of all the policies. if only i have a choice, things would've been easier...

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today's friday. supposedly, TGIF! but the atmosphere here in the office doesn't give that famous expression some justice. i've seen some of my co-workers today with sad look in their eyes...i feel for them. *sigh*

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five minutes before shift's over. time seems like a drag.. can wait to see Lee Min Ho again....hmmm..now, i'm smiling ^^

flu and Go Jun Pyo

been so swamped with all the trainings here in the office and with all the writings that i did for the past two weeks. that could've been the reason why my immune system gave up and welcomed the influenza virus. hate to break it to you though but it's not the infamous "swine flu," hehe.. just the common flu and good thing that it just lasted for three days. the past three days were indeed the most agonizing days of my life as i got to experience bodyache, headache, sore throat, cough and fever all at the same time. i'm really not used to getting sick, but i guess that was my body's way of saying "cut me some slack." but then again, whole day of bed rest and regular intake of medicine are not exactly part of my dream vacation wish list. two days of paid incentive leave were also wasted because of that darn flu...

i still thank God though for the speedy recovery. i heard that flu could be a drag to most people. during that time, my tartie was not well too. actually, she's still not well because of some infection. she might need a week more to recover... i was so touched though because during those times that she still took care of me... im really lucky to have her...
also, what kept me happy and relieved during those agonizing times was the korean drama, "boys over flowers." i just love the story so much that i fell in love with every character. i particularly hold dear in my heart Lee Min Ho a.k.a Go Jun Pyu. not only i love his character but also his looks and suave moves. so now, i'd say "move over, rob pattinson. we're done. i got a new baby!" lol

happy week starts

the weekend had been kind to me. not only was i able to enjoy the company of my partner and family at my sister's place but there was also a piece of good news that made me jumped in joy! i was told that i am now a notch higher in the EPH food chain. so from the gray team, (drumroll please, hehe) i am now a proud member of the red team. funny thing was, i actually thought that i was kicked out since i could not see the new assignment page for gray members that welcomes me once already logged in. little did i know that i was already in a different 'office,' haha. i even had to call my superfriend-slash-editor to make sure that i was still part of the company..

so there, such a wonderful experience that i had during the weekend. i hope that this week would really turn out to be a better one despite the line of trainings that i'm supposed to conduct. i also hope that i'd get to write more despite my busy schedule here in the office. i really love this online writing gig, it gives me a natural and a temporary escape from the crazy world of teaching and monitoring! ;p

inspirational video

the week that was really is a sad one. a lot of things had happened that i don't want to recapitulate them. i just want to forget about them since i've been working so hard to be positive despite the worst of things. so when things start to get shaky, i try to look for inspirational/ motivational, self help articles or vid that would boost my morale. good thing though, our department meeting yesterday gave me just what i really need. so to cap off the week that was, let me share this video presented to us. if you happen to love quotes, here's more that you'd surely love and motivate you in the process. life is indeed beautiful despite its flaws.

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happy weekend to all! =)

so... sad.

i should be writing for an assignment that's due early tomorrow but i can't just get myself to write coherently because of the sad, sad thing that happened today. . .

this morning, we were tasked to have a stint on the screening of applicants by the HR department. i was excited as i knew i'd be taking on another challenge. they said it was just like monitoring except that it's done live and evaluation has to be made on the spot. i had never thought that it would be a sullen experience for me... listening to aspiring teachers and evaluating them were not easy--- i had to listen to every word that is uttered, pay attention to the right word stress, listen to critical sounds and discriminate every long and short vowel sounds that they produce. it was taxing! especially when you add the fact that you have to think of what spiel to give once you knew that they're not just fit to be part of the company and string words that are grammatically acceptable and not discouraging on their part at the same time...it was one heck of an experience especially when i turned down two applicants.these two are like your typical bright-eyed applicants who tried their best during the speaking test and who managed to keep their smiles when you gave the implied 'good riddance' .. seeing them leave the room really broke my heart, after all, what do i know about them? i just know that they had little background in teaching and that they do not have that language factor that we're looking for. that's it. they might have a family to support or studies to complete but because of the implied 'no,' they'd have to thnk of other alternatives to do so...

it's really saddening.. if i could only do something about it... we were told that there would be more screenings to be done in the future. despite a break in the monotony of monitoring, i don't feel excited anymore...

wake me up when november comes

it's just june, sixth month of the year. end of the second quarter. i still have to wait for five more months...

i just can't wait until november. not only because it's my birth month but also because the next installment of the twilight series is slated in the same month. hehe, see how shallow i can get sometimes... it was just last week when i watched the official trailer and last month when i saw the posters of the upcoming movie. forums, blogs and other movie sites just can't be stopped from bringing the updates on this much-anticipated movie.

i had the trailer downloaded in my pc and have watched it for so many times. until now, i still can't help but drool over the handsome features of rob pattinson, the muscled figure of taylor lautner and the incredible effects when jacob morphed into a werewolf. this is definitely a must-see. but while waiting for that fateful day, i guess i better finish reading the book, haha. yep, haven't finished reading it yet. i'm such a slowpoke when it comes to reading ;-)

incidentally, i have here the 'official' posters of the upcoming flick. i downloaded them some weeks back but i was just too lazy to upload them here.. i'm displaying them here for no special reasons. perhaps i just want to be reminded after ten or probably twenty years from now, or when i'm too old to remember everything, that some time or somewhere in my liftetime, i was once part of the twilight hype...

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...the bod that got everyone talking...

...beauty personified (that's just me anyway)..

...which side would you choose?...

monday blues

i shouldn't be working until after two hours but due to an important desion-making two or three weeks from now, our moniroting tasks have come into full circle. so armed with my headset and a cup of coffee, i'm trying to ready myself for the next 10 hours. yep, ten hours and that means 10 classes to monitor as well. i hope i could finish earlier though so that i could still have my dose of facebook and bloghopping. i've been itching to do them during the weekend but the bad, bad weather caused our internet line to go ballistic. so instead of writing or visiting my facebook or friendster account, i spent the weekend watching nip/tuck, heheh.. it's pretty good though.. hope i really could juggle watching the disturbing drama along with my study and work time...


oh well, better start monitoring... btw, got my first points for my first writing assisgnment! couldn't be H-A-P-P-I-E-R!


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